Thursday, August 25, 2011

Kenangan

Semua orang pasti punya sebuah kenangan. Bisa sebuah, bisa juga lebih.
Kenangan bisa berupa barang, pengalaman, atau perasaan.

Jika seseorang memberikan kita suatu barang krna suatu hal, kita pasti akan menyimpannya dan merawatnya dengan baik.
Barang yg kita peroleh baik itu dari orang tua, saudara, teman, atau pun pacar, smuanya akan menjadi kenangan setelah kamu menerimanya.
Dan jika barang yg kmu peroleh itu hilang, kamu akan merasa sangat kecewa dan kamu akan melakukan segala cara untuk memperoleh kembali barang tersebut. Hal itu adalah hal yang wajar. Karena bagaimanapun, suatu barang, sekecil apapun ukurannya, akan menjadi sangat berarti jika yg memberinya adalah seorang yang sangat spesial.

Pengalaman pun bisa dikategorikan dalam kenangan. Pengalaman lah yang mengandung unsur "kenangan" paling banyak dari pada yang lainnya.
Pengalaman yang paling susah dilupakan yaitu saat kita menghabiskan waktu kita dari pagi hingga petang bersama temen-temen kita dengan melakukan hal-hal yang sangat berkesan. Misalnya kita jalan2 dari pagi, makan2, lalu berfoto2 disana disini, terus bertingkah memalukan didepan orang banyak. Memang memalukan! Tapi hal yg memalukan itu lah yang membuat kita tidak lupa akan hal itu. Kita akan selalu mengingatnya kemana pun kita pergi, apalagi klo kita melihat orang yang melakukan hal yang sama.
Sekarang anak2 yang baru lulus SMA banyak yg pindah keluar kota untuk melanjutkan kuliah mereka. Naaahh, disaat-saat terakhir itu, mereka akan meluangkan waktu mereka untuk berkumpul bersama sahabat-sahabat terbaik mereka. Mau itu cuma ngumpul2, atau makan2, intinya mereka cuma mau menghabiskan 1 hari saja bersama sahabat-sahabat mereka. Karena mereka tau, mereka tidak akan bisa bertemu setiap hari seperti yang mereka lakukan saat SMA.
Waktu mereka berkumpul, mereka membicarakan semua hal yang telah mereka lewati. Dari yang menyontek, yang pulang skolah masih nongkrong diskolah sampe magrib, yang dikelas kerjaannya tidur doang, yaa mengenang semua hal semasa SMA pastinya.
Terkadang semua nya akan berakhir dengan tetesan air mata. Namun, itu air mata bahagia. Bahagia karena dia memiliki temen-temen seperti kalian. Temen2 yang selalu ada buat dia. Temen2 yang suka duka nya selalu bareng dia. Dan temen2 yang slalu bisa bikin dia tersenyum dan tertawa.

Memang agak aneh. Tapi sebuah perasaan juga bisa menjadi sebuah kenangan. Kenapa tidak? Coba kamu pikir, kapan terakhir kali kamu merasakan jatuh cinta? Atau kapan terakhir kali kamu merasakan perasaan yang sangat amat bahagia banget?
Kalo kamu cuma diem dirumah, gak jalan2 sama temen, atau gak pernah pergi2, pasti kamu kangen berat sama yang namanya perasaan bahagis apalagi perasaan jatuh cinta.
Perasaan seperti itu sangat susah di cari.
Keluarga, sahabat, apalagi pacar, cuma mereka yang bisa bikin kalian merasa berarti untuk hidup didunia ini.
Saat kamu lagi melamun, yang ada dipikiranmu pasti cuma kenangan sama temen2 dan pacarmu. Kamu pasti slalu berharap supaya bisa kembali ke waktu itu. Tapi setelah kamu berhenti melamun, kamu akan sadar kalo ini dunia nyata. Dunia yang gak bisa bikin kamu kembali ke masa lalu. Dunia yang cuma bisa dihadapi masa depannya dan gak bisa dikembalikan ke masa dimana kita punya kenangan yang sangat manis.
Saat seberkas kenangan terlintas lagi di pikiranmu, kamu akan mulai menangis. Kamu akan merasakan sesak di dada.
Belum lagi kalo yang kamu inget adalah kesalahanmu di waktu yg dulu. Kamu pasti pengen banget kembali ke waktu itu. Waktu dimana kamu buat kesalahan tersebut supaya kamu bisa kembali kesana dan memperbaiki segalanya. Tapi, semuanya udah terlambat. Yang sudah berlalu gak bisa dikembalikan. Nasi sudah menjadi bubur. Skarang kamu cuma bisa menghadapi kenyataan dan mulai untuk belajar dari kesalahanmu yang dulu supaya kamu gak jatuh ke kesalahan yang sama.

Kenangan itu ada yang manis dan ada yang pahit.
Seberapa manis kenangan itu, tergantung kamu membuatnya dan mengingatnya.
Sepahit-pahit apapun kenanganmu, tetaplah kenangan yang gak bisa diganti.
Mengenang sesuatu yang sudah lewat itu boleh-boleh saja. Namun, jangan sampe kamu terbawa emosi untuk kembali ke waktu kamu mengalami kenangan tersebut.

Kalo kamu masih remaja, buat lah hal2 yang berkesan supaya di masa depan, kamu bisa menceritakannya ke anak-cucu mu.
Tidak ada kenangan tanpa pengalaman.

Sebanyak apapun air mata yang keluar dri matamu, gak akan membuat kenangan2 tersebut kembali

Monday, August 22, 2011

This is what I call galau

Galau karena kangen. Yak! Itu yg lagi aku alami sekarang.
Eiits, tapi ntar dulu. Kangennya bukan cuma ke satu orang. Tapi ke beberapa orang. Yaitu, daddy gue, ex gue, temen-temen gue, dan keluarga gue yg lainnya yg tidak berada di tmpt yg sama kyak gue.
Tpi yg aku tekankan disini, yaa *ehem ex.
Dulu, aku punya pacar-sebut saja justin. Nah justin ini adek kelas gue. Dia, seorang junior yg paling bisa bikin aku senyam-senyum cacingan. Hahahaha
Blablablablaaaa, akhirnya kita pacaran. (Ceritanya bisa di liat post awal blog)
Semuanya begitu indah waktu pertama kali pacaran. Iiihh serba romantic, serba sweet, dan selalu bikin yg lain envy2 for no special reason (ʃ⌣ƪ).
Sejak pertama kali pacaran,gue uda ninggalin dia ke Jakarta. Buat ngurusin visa gue. Dia selalu nyemangatin gue wktu gue ke embassy. Padahal dalem hatinya, dia sedih banget kalo gue musti pergi.
Lalalalalalalalaa gak nyangka kita uda pacaran 2 setengah bulan. Dan pada saat itu, dia mulai "aneh". Aneh maksudnya,yaa gak se sweet yg dulu. Dia udah jarang bbm *ehem* menghubungi aku.
Aku inget banget dulu kita pernah nelfonan selama 4 jam. Can u imagine that? Dan selama 4 jam itu, kita main parampaa sambil telfonan. Jdi ceritanya kita main bareng2. Kita main bareng. Trus waktu kita ga bsa go to the next level, dia bakal googling nyari cheatnya. Hahaha that was so fun.
Trus juga,aku inget wktu itu dia mau ulangan umum matematika. Dan dengan sok nya aku nawarin buat ngajarin dia. Bukannya tambah ngerti, eeehh malah tambah gak mudeng. Alhasil, nilainya dia jelek KARENA GUEE!! Щ(ºДºщ)
Aku ngerasa bersalah banget. Tpi dia blg, "it's okay." SEE?? He knew how to make me feel better.
Trus lagiiiiiii, waktu itu kita sempet melakukan photo shoot bertemakan couple dan judulnya OH! My lady (foto2 bisa diliat dipost sbelumnya)
And then, after hasil2nya jadi, semuanyaaaaa baguuusss tetayiiiiiiii.
Kita kayak menyatu gituuu. Aaaakkkhh!! Everybody said those pictures are so sweet. *ehem memang so sweet sih.muakakkakakak
Setelah mengenang-ngenang, kita kembali ke topik.
Nah, setelah 2 stengah bulan yg aku bilang itu, yg dia uda jarang contact2 lagi, justin akhirnya angkat bicara. Dia bilang gak kuat LDRan *PEGANGAAAANN!!*
Yes! I understood!
After dia bilang gitu, gue langsung nangis. You know nangis? Nangis itu lho jenis buah *itu manggis!*
Sodara gue sampe heran ngeliat gue yg selalu kayak orang gila, tiba2 nangis. Ya mau gimana dong? Preman pun klo hatinya di sakiti bakal nangis.
Toh juga nangis itu gak merugikan siapa-siapa. Ya kan?
And then, and then, semuanya berjalan seperti biasa. Seperti biasa, gak contact2an.
That day, aku ngerasa tercampakkan *ceileh* nggak juga sih, bahasa tepatnya itu eemm diabaikan. Menyakitkan banget rasanya diabaikan.
Stop! Gue gak sanggup cerita yg ini.
Nananananana terus terus, tanggal 11 agustus 2011, dia dia dia berkata dan bertanya apakah yg sebaiknya kita lakukan. Dan akhirnya, sadly kita mengakhiri semuanya. Gue langsung down. Gak bisa makan. Gak bisa tidur. Gak bisa jalan-jalan. Berat badan ku langsung turun kira-kira 2kg. Sangat mengenaskan.

Jengjengjengjeeenggg...
Beberapa hari setelah itu, aku pulang ke Bali. Trus aku main-main ke skolah. Maunya cuma ketemu dia, ngobrol2 bentar, dan pengen ngeliat muka nya dia. Yaa ngobrol2nya gak musti tentang kita itu. Yaa bisa kan ngomongin yg lain.
Tapi tapi tapi pas gue ke skolah,trus gue lewatin kelasnya dia, eeh malah temen-temennya dia yg melambaikan tangan ke gue. Kebayang gak sih perasaan guueehh?? Tapi itu belum sebrapa.
Waktu istirahat, kebetulan gue jga masih ada di skolah. Gue liat dia turun dari tangga. Dia melambaikan tangan ke gue, dan langsung ngacir. *jleb*
Temen-temen gue langsung emosi. Sementara gue? Gue cuma bisa ngelus dada dan pipi. Sakit! Sakit perasaan ini! Sakiiiiiitttttt lu emang.
But then, gue sabar. Biasa lah gue, slalu diuji kesabarannya.haha
Teruuss, tanggal 21 agustus, gue ke skolah lagi hendra, eh hendak mengambil surat rekomendasi. Waktu istirahat terlah berakhir, gue lagi ngobrol sama guru gue,pak H, dideket tangga. Trus dia naik tangga diiringi lagu hannah montana-i miss you sambil rambutnya di terpa angin *ceileh* dan dia nyapa gue. Nah perasaan udah mulai adem.
Trus waktu pulang skolah, gue ketemu dia di tempat keramat yaitu tempatnya soe dagang bakso SMAK Santo Yoseph yg paling eksis sejagat raya.
Gue papasan, dan dia nanya,"mau makan brey?" Aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa *gantung diri*
Trus aku jawab aja,"ngga. Makasih"
Ouu-em-jiiii!! Gue shock!!
Gak nyangka, setelah berapa tahun tak jumpa *halah*, dia akhirnya ngajak ngomong gue. Seorang gue yang cupu gak gaul dan kutuan iniiiii. Aaaaaaaaaaa *pingsan*
seketika gue langsung terbang. Tpi tiba2 nyangkut dipohon krna waktu dia duduk, ada cewek duduk sampingnya. HUAHUAHUA gue langsung garuk2 si soe. Bodo' deh dia mau geli-geli, tapi gue lebih mengenaskan. Apalah artinya sebuah punggung yg gue garukin daripda hati gue yg tdi nya uda diplester tpi plesternya lepas??
Sabaaarrrr! Yak, itu lagi yg aku lakukan s̶a̶m̶p̶e̶ ̶b̶o̶s̶e̶n̶.

Setelah cerita panjang lebar gini, disinilah point dari post gue. Hahaha.
Sejak saat gue udahan, aku merasa kehilangan. Layaknya aku kehilangan gelang LIVESTRONG yang sangat berharga. Layaknya aku kehilangan pulsa waktu aku gak berbuat apa-apa.
Intinya, aku merasa kehilangan. Hampa! Kosong!
Tiap hari aku ngegalauin dia. Ngarep dia mau ngajak ngobrol aku kayak dulu. (Dulu waktu masih temen biasa)
Tiap kali aku liatin itu foto-foto dipantai dengan back soundnya yiruma-love me, langsung tambah galau.
Dan tiap kali liat dia berada di jejaring sosial, langsung pengen bunuh diri aku nya ngeliat dia aktif banget sma yg lain. Ngiiiikkk gondok!
Dan akhirnya, gue mengakui kalo gue emang masih sayang. Tpi gue gak mau dia menderita karena gue. Biarkanlah aku aja yg menderita.
Berharap untuk dia supaya kembali, pasti selalu ada. Tapi harapan ya cuma harapan. Gak bisa diwujudkan.
Kerinduan cuma bisa ilang kalo ngeliat fotonya, denger suaranya, apalagi kalo bisa ketemu langsung. It feels like heaven.
I s̶t̶i̶l̶l̶ love you.

"Mengharapkan sesuatu untuk kembali itu hal yang wajar. Tapi bersikap dewasalah jika sesuatu tersebut tidak akan pernah kembali lagi seperti yang dulu."

Friday, August 19, 2011

the one who ...

The one who made me can't sleep is you.
The one who made me wake up in the middle of the night just to check my phone is you.
The one who always made me smile is you.
The one who gave me unforgettable adventure is you.
The one who always worried about me is you.

The one who could blow me away is you.
The one who lifted me up is you.
The one who always hold my hand is you.
The one who hugged me every time I left is you.
The one who dropped me down is you.
The one who broke my heart is you.
The one who tortured me indirectly is you.

The one who made me cry all night is you.
The one whom I missing is you.
The one whom I would like to be my best friend is you.

Everything in my life is about you.
But since you were gone, it's only about me and my friends.
No more special person.
No more waking up in the middle of the night.
No more thrilling sentence.
There was only cry.
There was heart broken.
And there was a regret.
A regret for being forgotten.
And a regret for being left behind.

Wednesday, August 17, 2011

Let Go

Every time in our life, we received things, we give away things. We smile, we cry. We felt happy, we felt sad. We were thrilled, we were disappointed.
As long as you live, you will going through situation like these.

When we have something precious, sooner or later we'll lose it.
I'm talking about love.
When you saw love, you started to make a move.
When that love came to you, you would get closer.
When that love spin around your head, you would hardly to get some sleep.
When you finally owned that love, you saw everything shaped in heart, you felt this world is amazing, and you would thank God every morning, every night, and every time you spent with your love.
Both of you going through days with happiness. Nothing could make you angry, mad, or upset. Because there was someone who forbid you for doing that.
Every time you see each other, you would hug and gave cheek-kisses.
You would holding hands.
You laughed on every silly things.
You talked about everything.
You spent as much time as you can.
And when you needed to go, he would give you million hugs.
He would wait in the same place until you fade away.
Smile which came from his lips ended your meeting.
When he said good bye, you would shut his mouth. Because you hate hearing a good-bye. You just afraid if it really was a "good-bye".

He would never let you being or get hurt.
He would take care about you.
He would do anything just to see you smile and hear you laugh when you cried.
He would say that he won't let you go.
He would say that he will hold you tight.
He said "I love you" every morning.
Every night he would pray for you and for your relationship.
Not just him. You would do the same thing.
You would say,"I love you too"
You prayed for him every second.
You wished for a long-lasting relationship with him.
When people said both of you were meant for each other, you guys must be so proud.
But wheel is rotating. We will not always be on top. We won't feel happiness everyday.
One by one, problems came.
At first, you survived it. But when the second, third, fourth, and more and more attacked you, you wouldn't be able to survive it any longer.
Especially if you were having a problem about distance.
Distance is SUCK. Distance can breaks you apart.
Both of you might say that you could get through it.
After 2 months or more, one of you will be suffering a disease called i-miss-you-so-much disease.
That was the only beginning. Then, one of you started stop contacting each other, with an excuse which doesn't make any sense.
It happened once. And the next day, it would happen again. And the next day, and the next day, and the next day the same thing happened again.
Finally it ended when he texted you saying that he couldn't handle it any longer. He would said what was the best for both of you. And it was break up.
When you read that, you would felt there was something punched your chest very very hard.
Even that was what you feel, you replied his text calmly and with smile.
You would say it was okay, and it was the best for you guys.
And the end, you guys would say a real "good-bye"
Good bye to the sweetest things you ever had.
Good bye to the person who said "I love you" every day.
Good bye to every hug he would give you.
Good bye to a special person in you life.

You used to be so excited on starting your day.
You used to hold your phone every where. So, when he texted you, you could reply it straight away.
You used to have someone who were willing to hear annoying story of you.
Now, every night your thought were full of him.
You asked your doll, your phone, or even to wind, how could it end.
You could left your phone for days because you knew that there will be no one looking for you.
Your beautiful cheering smile is disappear.
Your life suddenly empty.
You didn't want to talk.
You couldn't eat.
You were hurt.
You were suffering.

When you lost your love, there is only smile left covering your tears.

You wanted to move on. But you couldn't.
You wanted everything to be fine.
You wanted to be his best friends.
But when you see the way he treated you after "that" day was very different. He treated you as if you are his enemy.
Then, you felt GALAU.
Questions appeared. Does he still love me? Why he treated me this way? Did I make the right decision? Am I still in love with him?
Those are question which can never be answered unless you ask him.

You tried to hold on, to move on, and to get through these things with smile.
Sadly, at the end of the day, you said,"I can't."
Your friends, your parents, your cousins, and God have supported you indirectly.
But that's how life works.
Once your heart said you can't, then YOU CAN'T.
You wanted to forget it. But you couldn't.
You wanted to let it flow. But something blocked it.
Crying and shouting can relieve your pain.

Give everything to God.
Trust him that He has prepared a better man for you out there.
God always gives us the best. It's just how you find it and how you keep it when you got it.

Tuesday, August 16, 2011

Long Distance Quotes

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Distance never separates two hearts that really care, for our memories span the miles and in seconds we are there. But whenever I start feeling sad, because I miss you, I remind myself how lucky I am to have someone so special to miss.
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Distance doesn't matter if you really love the person, what matters most is your honesty and trust for that relationship to work out.
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Though miles may lie between us, we're never far apart, for friendship doesn't count the miles, it's measured by the heart.
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Distance, it is a test of love, many will fail, but for those who can withstand it have the answer: true love
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Even if you are far away, you are always close to my heart. It's good that we are far away because we learn the patient to wait for each other   

The part ...

The part of you which contains happiness is you lips. From your lips, I can see your beautiful smile. A smile which can makes me smile too.
The part of you which give happiness is your laughter. The way you laughed was very funny that I also could laughed.
The part of you which makes me safe are your arms. When you hugged me, everything unable to hurt me.
The part of you which is shiny all the time is your eyes. They sparkled every time you looked at me. And it froze me.
The part of you which made me laugh is your foolishness. It tickled my stomach hardly.
The part of you which blew me away was when you asked me to be your special one.
The part of you which made my hand sweating are your hands. You hold mine as if you don't want to let it go.
The part of you which me stop crying is your shoulder. I felt calm when I leaned on it.
The part of you which thrilled me was your words. That was when you said "I love you"
The part of you which hurt me was your attitude. Every time you ignored me, I felt pain on my chest.
The part of you which annoyed me was when you didn't contact me for a day.
The part of you which made me mad was when you don't care about me anymore.
The part of you which disappointed me was your honesty. When you said that you couldn't handle the distance.

The part of us which can never be forgotten is when we were united as one.
The part of us which brought happiness was when we spent all day long together.
The part of us which made me can't breathe was when you hugged me and kissed my cheek.
The part of us which made me can't sleep all night long was when I knew you were sick because of me.
The part of us which made others jealous was when we were doing that photo-shoot.
The part of us which unexpected was when we stood by our self.



The part of you and the parts of us are the most amazing parts in my life.
They cheered me up. They cried me out.
They lifted me up. They dropped me down.
Most of all, they brought many new things in my life.
New things which I never had before.
New things which I could tell to my kids later.
New things which I could learn, so I wouldn't fall in the same mistakes.

Sunday, August 14, 2011

You are STRONG!

Have you ever heard anyone telling you that you are weak? You can't do anything? 
Well that hurts so much.
There is nothing you can do except complaining
They just don't know how strong you are inside.
If you are weak, you will not be able to live in this world.
If you are weak, you can never face your problems.
If you are weak, you 've already suicide your self.
And if you are weak, you will not exist in this world.
Because God never created weak people. He created strong people. He gave strength in us.
Strength to fight in this world. Strength to survive trials. And strength to face the truth.
If any one said that you are weak, they also vilified God.

Insult others by saying they are weak, is a childish thing.
They haven't grown up. They have no mind. They are numb.
Numb with feelings.
They just don't understand how much it hurt when someone said you are weak.
 When you fell down, people would say that you are weak. But that's completely wrong if you stand up and stand tall.
It only takes courage to stand up after you fall.
If you still can't stand up, remember this,"Do you want people around you to insult you because you don't want to move on?" make that as a guidance for you to not afraid to move on.

You are the only person who can decide whether you are strong or weak. No one else can do it.
What ever happen to you, stay strong. Because when He knew you are weak, He will give you strength.

" If you are weak, you will not be able to live this world, face those obstacle, and get through that painful  moments."
*auballble*

Digital World: OH ! My Lady (MV)

Digital World: OH ! My Lady (MV)

unforgettable moment of my life

Saturday, August 13, 2011

Friends are for ever

Do you ever wonder how suck your life would be if you got no one to talk to?
Well, it would be suck, don't you think?
You got no one to talk to when you have problems.
You completely failed if you stand
You will feel lonely.
And at last, you would say that God is not fair.
Those things won't happen unless you have friends.
Ages don't matter. Younger, older, or even in the same age as yours is also fine. As long as they can make you feel comfortable and they are able to bring happiness to you, that will be fine.

For those of you who already have friends, what do you feel this far?
Don't you feel happiness?
Is your problems solved?
Aren't always there for you??
Yes, yes, and yes, they are.
Some problems might not be solve with your friends. But at least, they could give you suggestion or something to solve your problems. Or sometimes, when they couldn't find ways to solve your problems, they just give spirit so you can stay strong to face it.

When you have problems with you friends, try to solve it in a nice way. Don't be angry easily.
If you guys talk about it clearly, you might find the reason why you guys be mad at each other.
love your friends. Because finding good friends are not as easy as finding wind.
Say sorry to them if you ever hurt their feelings.
Forgive them of they ever hurt you.
Be friends with them until death separate you.

I have said a lot of things about friends. But I really want to share it again so you can keep your friendship.

Thursday, August 11, 2011

11 weeks with love

kira-kira 11 minggu yang lalu. Waktu itu aku pengumuman kelulusan beserta pengumuman kalo aku uda melepas my "single status". Yes, I was very very happy.
Sejak saat itu, I enjoyed all my days. Everyday I felt happy.
Every single day, there is someone saying 'good morning' when I woke up
Every time I'm about to eat, there is someone said,'bon appetite'
Every where you go, there is someone who pray for your safety.
Every night, there always be someone who said 'good night'
And every day, there is someone saying,' I love you'

11 minggu itu, kita jalanin bareng-bareng. We laugh, we love, we also sing together.
Dia yang ngajarin aku bikin blog. Dari awal sampe cara ngedesignnya.
Dia cowok pertama yang mainin gitar di depanku pake lagunya bread yang judulnya Aubrey.
Dia orang kedua yang selalu bilang 'love you' after my dad.
Dia orang yang slalu care kalo aku begadang.
Kejayusannya dia slalu bikin aku ketawa.
Cara dia perhatian slalu bikin aku bahagia biarpun aku express in nya jutek-jutek gak jelas.
Hoooaaahhhh, so hard letting him go. Lebih susah dari dipaksa makan malem.

Waktu itu aku emang lagi gak berada di kota yang sama. Aku di Jakarta, dia di Bali. But we kept contacting each other via telephone but mostly via bbm.
Day by day he was getting weird.
There was a day that he didn't contact me at all. But he was on twitter, tweeting, and changing his bbm status.
In you opinion, wouldn't you be pissed?
But I'm trying not to think about it too much. The more I ignore it, the more I suffered.
I couldn't eat for about 3 or 4 days.
He was getting weirder and weirder.

And finally, on 11th August 2011, everything was answered.
He suddenly bbm me saying that he want to end it up. He couldn't take it anymore. Distance is the matter.
YAP! that's the answer.
So I said okay. I thought it's the best way for both of us.
And yes, we were over.
His bbm status expressed that he was driving full speed. GILAAAA! gue langsung panik bener-bener.
If something happen to him, gue yang mampus ntar.
I didn't want any bad thing happen to him. Not because of this things.
Thank God, he arrived home safely.
I asked him if we can still be friends. And he certainly said of course.
At least I felt happy because of that answer.
11 week end on 11th Agusut.
A good date with a happy ending.
I just wish we can be the way we were. Being nice to each other. And being friends for ever.
After all, I feel blessed to know him and to be his special one even just for a while.
I am so happy that God united us.

I will not forget everything we've been through together.
And I certainly couldn't do that. Because it has been stuck in my mind.

This is not a good bye. But this is a new 'hello'
I never regret I was yours. But I regret why we should end it up.
Now that we are on our own, I wish the best of luck for you.

"Jangan pernah merasa kecewa akan hal yang telah terjadi.
Tapi kecewalah jika hal tersebut membuatmu putus asa."
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"Rencana Tuhan memang indah. Ia mempetemukan kita. Lalu Ia mempersatukan kita. Dan kini Ia memisahkan kita karena Ia telah mempunyai rencana indah lainnya untuk kita jalani"
*auballble*

Persahabatan

Persahabatan sering menyuguhkan beberapa cobaan, tetapi
persahabatan sejati bisa mengatasi cobaan itu bahkan
bertumbuh bersama karenanya…

Persahabatan tidak terjalin secara otomatis tetapi
membutuhkan proses yang panjang seperti besi menajamkan besi,
demikianlah sahabat menajamkan sahabatnya. Persahabatan
diwarnai dengan berbagai pengalaman suka dan duka, dihibur-disakiti,
diperhatikan-dikecewakan, didengar-diabaikan, dibantu-ditolak,
namun semua ini tidak pernah sengaja dilakukan
dengan tujuan kebencian.

Proses dari teman menjadi sahabat membutuhkan usaha
pemeliharaan dari kesetiaan, tetapi bukan pada saat kita
membutuhkan bantuan barulah kita memiliki motivasi
mencari perhatian, pertolongan dan pernyataaan kasih
dari orang lain, tetapi justru ia beriinisiatif memberikan
dan mewujudkan apa yang dibutuhkan oleh sahabatnya.
Seorang sahabat pun bisa mengkhianati kalian.
mereka akan melakukannya dalam segala cara.
Tapi, tidak ada seorang sahabat yang benar-benar tega melakukan hal tersebut.
Jika ada, orang tersebut tidak layal untuk dipanggil 'sahabat'. Mereka lebih baik dipanggil 'musuh dalam selimut'
Seorang sahabat akan selalu ada saat kamu butuh.
Seorang sahabat akan selalu menjadi sahabatmu sampe kalian tidak bertemu lagi, sampe kalian menikah, mempunyai anak, hingga kalian mati.
Seorang sahabat tidak akan hilang jika kalian always keep in touch. alias selalu melakukan contact. Melalui telpon, sms, bbm, email, atau dengan apa saja.
Seorang sahabat tidak akan meninggalkan kamu saat kamu menghadapi kesulitan. Ia malah akan ikut serta dalam masalahmu itu supaya kamu tidak merasa bahwa tidak ada orang yang mau membantu. Mereka akan rela ikut campur demi kebaikan mu dan demi masalahmu supaya cvepet selesai.
Kalo kamu punya sahabat, sayangilah sahabatmu seperti kamu menyayangi keluargamu.
Karena sahabat adalah keluarga kecil kita di luar rumah.
Jangan sampe kamu mengecewakan sahabatmu. Karena mereka telah melakukan hal-hal yang mungkin tidak kamu ketahui. 

*auballble* 

Sunday, August 7, 2011

Feel Ignored?

Did you ever feel ignored by people around you?
Were you mad?
What did you do to that person or those people?
What is their reason to ignore you?

You of course ever being ignored. By your family, friends, or anyone else.
It suck for being ignored. Because when you were ignored, there is nothing you can do. You just wait for them to not ignore you anymore.
No one will be pleased for being ignored. If there is, they are STUPID!!
Ignoring someone is a very silly thing to do. What's the advantage? Did you get money for doing that? Huh, I guess not.
You would be mad to that person for sure. Because what ever the situation, they can't ignore you. Unless you made mistake to them, then they have permission to ignore you.
Sometimes they don't have exact reason to ignore you. If you ask them, they might say that they were busy and they have no time to contact you when they were on twitter or facebook.
It seems like a simple reason. But it is so JLEB (read: painful), don't you think?
Just think about it. Who would not be pissed hearing reason like that?
" Your mom would" #sumpahgakpenting #ignore

DO NOT ignore anyone around you.
Because ignoring is very HURTING someone's feeling.

things that can make you cry

GOD 
  He made you cry with every trial he gave.
   At first we might be strong to handle it. 
   But then when you faced those trials over and over again, you will be exhausted and you will not be able to get
   through it anymore.
   At the end, you will cry. And you will feel relieve.

PARENTS
   They made you cry with everything they said.
   Everywords which came out from their mouth can be so harsh.
   Behind those harsh words they said, contain meaning and strong purposes.
   They said it because they have to. They don't want us to be a bad person or fall in the same mistakes all
   over again.
   If you are a sensitive person, it's easy for you to drop tears.
   But always remember, when parents started yelling at you, think about why they did that.

FRIENDS
   Friends make you cry with everythings they did.
   Sometime they can make us happy, but sometime not.
   They could hurt you with unexpected ways. It could be how they treated you, how they spoke to you,
   or even how they ignored you.
   Friends, best friends, boyfriend/girlfriend are able to do that.
   When they did that, it doesn't always mean they hate you. Maybe it's because they were not in mood or you
   made mistakes which they dislike.
   Everybody make mistakes. But when yours pissed them up, they have rights to treat you that way.

Do you feel the same with me ?  

Tuesday, August 2, 2011

Family, Friends, Love, and Happiness

not everybody have happiness.
Although you have lots and lots of money, there is no guarantee that you will found happiness with those money. Those money only bring happiness for a while.
Like when you shopped for something, you felt happy. But when your money decreased, then your happiness will fade away..
" YOU CAN FIND MONEY IN EVERY WAY.
BUT YOU CAN ONLY FIND HAPPINESS IN ONE WAY.
CHEER OTHERS"
You will found the eternal happiness around you. Not with money, but with people.
Family, friends, or your beloved one, can bring happiness to you.
They would do anything to make you smile when you cry.
They would help you when you are struggling.
They would come to you when you are alone.
And they did that for free. They didn't ask for rewards.
In their mind, there is only one sentence. "If I can make her/him happy, I will be happy as well."
But sadly, those who have family, friends or their beloved one, still couldn't feel happy. There are many reason for that. One of them is togetherness.
There will be no togetherness if each of them were busy with their own business.
That's why you should take some time to spend with your beloved people.

Family gives you support.
Friends bring laughter.
Your beloved one gives you smile.
And they always have something that no onec can give you. And it is love.
Giving love and finding happiness are both hard things to find.
If you want to get it, you have to be able to give it.

Make others happy is not an easy task. We should do something funny or even silly just to make others feel happy.Making people happy, won't make you die. It also can make yourself happy.
Cheer others who is sad.
Accompany them when they are alone.
Give your shoulder when they need one to lean on.
Strengthen them with your kindness.
But, do not ever hurt them with your statement.
Because once you hurt them, they will never be there when you are down.

Keep your spirit to make others happy!!